Each kid found himself victim to one of
the many human abuses of dumping a child out of the back of a station
wagon into the snot-filled clutches of a pack of anonymous kids. It was
an enforced group dynamics that came with all its paranoids, masochists
and victims for no other reason then that they have turned the same
sinister age of the draft, and as it was a Catholic school in the early
sixties, abuse was not only condoned, but expected at any and all
levels.
The teacher was a myopic, old woman with
a pink barrette and brown teeth who spent a large portion of her day
trying to figure out what her pension would be if she quit that
afternoon, punching numbers into an adding machine, picking it up and
sneering at it as reality spread bitterness over her face, while the
children were left to themselves – a sort of Lord of the
Flies meets Mickey Mouse – in which the forces of evil press
in on the good like white bread on peanut butter. The so-called good, a
weak but whiny lot who actually clung to that abstract of
“justice for all,” would tattle to Mrs. Pufry...Mzz Puffy,
she hit me...Mzz Puffy he said the bad word...Mzz Puffy, I gotta
go....Mzz Puffy, Thomas is hanging in the cloakroom again...” and
Mrs. Pufry’s hand would absently lash out at the sniveling chorus
and shoo them back to their seats without looking up, including the one
who had to go, who was now shamed into retreat with the rest of them,
finding out early in life that time was never to be on his side as he
fought a losing battle with the vicious stream that laughed its way
down his pant legs.
After lunch and regulated nap, Mrs.
Pufry would suddenly lurch up out of her chair and stumble toward the
supply cabinets, like some hideous, reanimated corpse, and hurl herself
around the room throwing out instructions, crayons, construction paper,
and panic, forcing an art deadline on all of them. The class
experienced their first creative block, staring at the paper, a pile of
broken crayons, the clock that rushed around in a circle none of them
could decipher, and Mrs. Pufry, now looming over them, pacing the
aisles, staring down at the feeble slashes and stick men with disgust,
cuffing a few heads yelling, “hurry up, fill that page, nobody
asked for Picasso.”
When the final bell finally rang at
three o’clock and the parents lined up outside for their wards,
each shaky child clutched a lopsided monkey, tortured landscapes,
family portraits with a member or two missing, heads without bodies,
bodies without heads, in what could have been a fair rendition of the
birth, or at the very least, the first mass movement toward minimalism.
School was a daily workshop in human dynamics.
Meg
Tuite has been published or will soon be published in Calliope, The
Boston Literary Magazine, SLAB Magazine, Crash, Jersey Devil
Press, Midnight Screaming Magazine,
Sleet Magazine, Ink Monkey Magazine, Blue Print Review and Fractured
West. Meg is the fiction editor for The Santa Fe Literary
Review. She won a cash prize in a fiction contest at Santa Fe College.
Sinister Age of the Draft was first published in Midnight Screaming
Magazine.
The horror of
the first day of school is never something that left me. All of us
psychotics were thrown together by nothing other than the age of the
draft. At that time it was five or six years old. It was the beginning
of the end.