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buzz-cut stalks to soft, speckled fur. Released, topsoil rallies,
bites the eyes
of Grandpa, who’s only here to watch.
A hawk dances above the teeth of dirt,
follows the tractor’s ruts, sees a something in
the knotted
soil—plummets.
As the distant tractor disappears Grandpa thinks he can still hear the
gear grind, hydraulic thrust, engine snarl,
but it’s only the gasping breath of his oxygen pump.
The tube tills
furrows in his face.
He checks the meter to see how long he’ll still have air.
He exhales, blows away the dirt that’s settled on his skin,
and waits for the tractor to reappear
in its endless spinning cycles.

| I wrote this
poem after the death of my Grandfather. As long as I can remember,
Grandpa was a vital and integral part of our family farm. When he
developed lung cancer during the last year of his life, he was unable
to work and simply had to watch. I hoped to catch the tension of his
newly insignificant role on the farm, but his love of just being there
as the work continued by his children and grandchildren. |
